the pit

for most of us, we fall into a deep dark pit at least once in life...
i was in one and i'm just slowly climbing out of it.

you've probably wondered where i've been for the past couple of months.
i've caused some people to worry because of my disappearance.
that's because i've chosen to hide myself, until i'm ready to be my "old" self again.

now, i'm no longer in japan.
i've moved back home. to california.
sometimes life doesn't go in the direction that you want it to.
sometimes having a worst-case-scenario in mind still doesn't prepare you for the reality.

but life still goes on...
i've been trying to deal with life without that someone.
it's harder than i thought, but i'm taking one day at a time.

i'm glad that i always have some special friends and a dear family to go to. at anytime.

as one friend said, "it is okay to allow yourself to be in the pit..."
today, i'm taking this small step out of the pit by writing my blog again.
i want to let people know that i'll be fine.

i do appreciate you'll understand that perhaps sometimes, i'll have my moments and not respond to your emails or phone calls immediately.

i'll try my best.